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Sunday, 11 October 2009

  • #60

    Many days have passed and many things have happened, some of which cancelling others out which make them not matter anymore. The struggle to persevere and stay optimistic seems bleak. I can't visualise the winning end anymore and things seem all so hopeless suddenly.

    And so we're right back to this again. Back to the state of semi-consciousness where the discernment of reality from dreams and desires become so difficult. But this time, it's different, because I don't know who I can talk to.

Friday, 14 August 2009

  • #59

    Everyone's so caught up with wanting to be somebody.
    Idols and worship-heroes.

    I'm so sick of seeing people trying so hard to be someone else. Can't they see that they'll only be the happiest when they change for themselves and not other people? Can't they see that they can only love who they are truly rather than who they are trying to be?

    Anyway. You said the darndest things to me today. Wonder if you knew that I had really wanted to tell you, "Yes, I want to." Wonder if you knew that I hoped you had really meant it.

    The strongest feelings of impulsion are often masked by our fears and insecurities. And you don't know how much it'd almost gave itself away today.

Thursday, 16 July 2009

Sunday, 12 July 2009

  • #57

    We're all human and we're not infallible. The need for some sort of alliance, the cultivation of some sort of reliance has driven us into being so-called "social animals". But friendships are bonds forged among people who have more than the innate human instinct as a reason for being friends.
     
    But yet, some of such friendships are still so fragile. One jab at the archilles' heel and it all falls apart.

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

  • #56

    They stir up a sense of indignation. They render you weak to the circumstance, forcing you to accept current conditions. But who's to blame when it had been your decision to make? You live with the frustration and the bitterness. All that fills your mind is the fantasy of what could have been. The grief of knowing what you could have held dear to your heart and where you could have called your own. You resent the present, cling onto the past and hate to face the future.

    Do you feel lost? Do you feel victimised?
    Are you miserable? Are you lost in despair?
    Does nothing but sorrow seem to fill your soul?

    Let go of your regrets.
    It's time to move on.

Wednesday, 10 June 2009

  • #55

    We keep building those walls. Tile by tile, brick by brick.
    Each forgotten memory, each heartache, each bit of bewilderment.

    Don't you know by now that I have problems letting things go?
    Or was it not obvious enough for you?

    So I want to know,
    does your heart sing or sigh?

Sunday, 03 May 2009

  • #54

    I suddenly feel like I'm living in this semi-screwed up time warp. Life's playing on fast-forward and all that comes by are but blurry visions of uncertainty. I've become so obsessed with counting down the days to nothingness and my feelings are left in the state of limbo within transition from the current to the future.

    In other words, I am lost.

Tuesday, 28 April 2009

  • #53

    There's a reason for every choice made. There's a history to every life lived.

    Life shouldn't be a fight to have the most flourishing social circle. Its importance lies in meaningful interaction, mutual trust and empathy. I don't see why you're trying so hard to garner all that superficial support/rapport when they will be the first structures to collapse anyway.

Friday, 10 April 2009

  • #52 Getting out of the state of denial.

    Let's face it.
    We're never getting out of this. It's all downhill from here.

    I don't belong to your world of faux optimism, cheeriness, brightness, cutesy-ness, vibrance in superficilaity and beauty without pain. I am made of chaos, destruction, all things angsty and violent and I'll make sure you'll regret ever trying to change that.

    I don't wish to be one of you. I am a radical that everyone wishes not to be and that everyone dares not be. I am but another misconception of your fears, your lies and your hidden skeletons.

Wednesday, 11 March 2009

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